Two weeks tomorrow!

Tomorrow it will be two weeks since I gave up smoking. I'm so happy! I feel really proud of myself for making a choice and sticking to it. I already feel so much better and healthier. I watch other people smoke and I either go, 'OMFG I WANT ONE' or 'Ew, I feel bad for them. Don't they realise how disgusting that is? How it's making them feel like shit?' More often these days I swing towards the latter. Which is a really cool feeling.

To help me taper off it, and also out of enjoyment, I've started smoking Blue Lotus flower and Damiana. It's a really enjoyable combo. A lot more effective than a cigarette, healthier, tastier, cheaper. It's just good. Damiana gives you a mild euphoria and excitement, is also a well know aphrodisiac but it doesn't... have that effect... Blue lotus just makes you feel a little stoned, not in a mary jane sense, just kind of low or connected to the ground in a positive way, colours go a little sparkley also. Lasts about 30 minutes or so and is not impairing at all. If I'm having a rough day at work its so much better to wander off and relax with a joint instead of a cigarette. I find it makes customers so much easier to deal with. Another positive note is that because it takes effort to smoke instead of just pulling it out of a packet, I'm not inclined to smoke nearly as much as I used to. At times when I used to crave cigarettes the most, like after dinner, or during coffee, it's really good to have an impliment in place so that I don't fold. Not that I would've anyway ;)

Staying in Mums house this weekend. SO lovely to have some peace and quiet. It feels like I'm on holiday. This is also the first time I've stayed in Titirangi for about four months! I love it out here. I'm seriously considering getting work and a flat back these ways. It fits nicely with my new relaxed ways of thinking.