Eeeeeee!!!!

I have a job interview on Friday with Greenpeace. So excited. I'm feeling a little unsure about it. I'm confident in my abilities but not with whether I'm going to enjoy this specific job. But still, I believe its going to be a step up from Starbucks and having a change and new challenge is going to be really beneficial. I'm also glad that I'm sure of what I want to be doing with myself. Good times ensue, and I'm very very excited. Plus, it's more money. Cello lessons, perhaps?

Feeling really strange and detatched from a lot of things at the moment. I feel very much in my own head and for once it's really positive. I feel focused. I feel sure of myself. It's a really brilliant feeling to be so stimulated by living again. I worry though. I don't want to end up making myself a complete loner. I need to be careful and remember to keep the people I care about close to me. I keep feeling like I have to make excuses to not see people. I have no idea why. People invite me to do things and I just don't want to. I ask myself whether I have issues with seeing the people who are inviting me places, and I don't. I don't know what my problem is. I'm having less faith in the people I'm meeting. I feel like I'm just meeting assholes over and over and over, but in contrast, I'm feeling very at peace with humanity. Intersting. I think time will be revealing, and changes will scratch away at dead skin.