Feeling better now.

It's strange how I have a complex at the moment that makes me feel like every moment will be everlasting. If something is bad, I react as if it's been like that for years and must change now. I need to remember that each day is different and changing.

I've noticed that the more I socialise, the better I feel. So although I'm still reluctant to do so, I'm trying to force myself to do it anyway. I don't have to stick around if I'm not enjoying myself, but the fact that I go and give it a go will be good. After seeing a few friends, and my family more, I've already noticed the difference. I feel healthier. It's great.

I think I'm pretty set in my idea of moving back west. I just need to get a job that will first allow me to do so, and then find a flat after that. I'm hoping that this will happen in the near future. I really don't know what to do jobwise though. If I don't get this iPod technician thing that is, which is by no means guarunteed. I am so over hospitality. It's the same shit over and over.

I'm getting myself together. Yee!